Book3:WereMyDreamIs (第81/327页)

overwithagunandtriedtointimidateus,butJamazandItookhisgunaway,beatthecrapoutofhimandthrewhimoutagain.Iftheyebackherewhilewearegone,don’ttahtheminanyway.Theyareruthlessandbarbaric.Justgotosomeremoteerofthegardenandighem.Waitforustodealwiththemwhenweeback.Betteryet,leavethegardentemporarilybutdon’tgofar.Youareblindandhavetroublemakingyourway.Leavethemtothetwoofus…”

    “Don’tworry,Iwooafightwithanyone”saidDimitrismiling.“Didn’tMr.FingersayIwaslikeabrokenballbythesideofthestreetthatanyonekickaround?IfthesepeopledoehereIwillgotoaquiet,isotederorleaveherealtogether.Youguyshaveworktodo.Goanddoyourjob.I’llbealright.”

    RichardandJamazleftasquicklyastheycame,buttheirwordsremaihDimitri.

    “Yes,”hethought,“Inthisworldtherearepeople,rottentothecore,livingmiserable,detandcorruptlives.Theircreedseemstobethemorecorrupt,thebetter.Buttheyarenotofthemajority,infacttherearen’treallythatmanyofthem.I,too,amahomelessvagabondandonewholovestodream.Ifmylifeisanexperiment,aretheresultscorrectorincorrect?Acctothenormalpatternoflife,whenaboygrowsuptobeamaearnhisownliviajobsomewhereasaclerkorcivilemployeeandtrytolivewithinhismeansonameagersary.Hewillmarryandhavechildren.Thepihewife’sappearahemorepthislifewillbe,andhewillfeelsafeandfreefrompressure.Asforchildrewoistheidealnumber,ashewouldnotbeabletoaffordmore.Theyscrimpandsaveandgoonafamilyvacatioheycouldaffordto.Afterafewsuchvacationsanditwouldbetimetoretire…Butmymodeoflifehasgoheoppositeway.Iunsciouslywalkedohtowardsbeingablindhomelessperson,ahomelesspersonwholovestodream.Peoplemaypitymeandfeelsorryformyplight,butiy,Icouldnothavemetmygoodfriendsotherwise.FriendsaretherichesIhaveaccumutedinlifeandwhomIotlivewithout.Friendsareindispensible,especiallytoablindmanlikeme.MyloveofdreamseobuildmyKingdomofDreamswithitsmagnifitpaces,twenty-fourbeautiesandmyKingdomfullofloyalsubjects.ThoughIamapenniless,blindhomelessperson,inmydreamsIamthepowerfulsnofakingdomandricherthanMidas.Whosaythatmyexperimentoflifeisafailureandnotasuccess?

    Lifemaybeexperimental,butfateotbeged.Theingredientsthatmakeupfatehadbeeihemomentlifebegan.Theseplicatedandhardtouandingredientsotbecalcuted,evenbythemostadvanputersiedbyman.Whenamanisborn,helivesacctotheroutesetoutbyfate.Somelivesaresmoothandsuccessful,pavedwithfameandfortuherswalkonahardandtortuouspath,fulloflonelinessandmisfortuheposofpeople’slivesmaybeasdifferentastheinnumerablebinationsofthekaleidoscope,buttheendisinvariablythesame–death,thegreatequalizer.BeforethegodofFate,weareallhelplessandinsignifitbecausehisdecreesarefinandnottobebargaih.Welyacceptourfatewithoutresistance,forresistanceisfutileanyway.DoyouthinkthatI,Dimitri,waswillingtoacceptmyfateasablindmaainlynot,butwhatcouldIdo?BeforeFate,Iaminsignifitandhelpless,uoresistinanyway.Mywayofg,myullwoolovertheeyesofthegodoffate,istodevelopabeautifulsecretgardenintheinnermostpartofmyheartwithouthisnotioomecouldtouchthispce.

    Dimitrigedfromsleepingsidewaystolyingftonhisbathetground,ilythesamepositionasthatgiantonGiantMountainwhoype